Tonight was a struggle. I started and tossed aside several drawings, unable to find my artistic mojo. I spent the day on the phone with my sisters, our Dad is still having issues from the fall he had last month, in the last twenty-four hours he has been struggling with a great deal of confusion. In the end we discovered that he was suffering from several of the side effects from a new medication. I find myself again feeling frustration, guilt, and a tremendous amount of worry. It is frustrating not being near when my Dad is not well, and as I have mentioned previously my sisters are carrying a heavy load, I feel terrible that I am not there to help. When we made the decision to move to California we didn’t imagine what the future would and could hold. All of that worry got in the way of my creativity. As the evening wore on I tried several ideas, what I ended up with was a simple line drawing of a pot of flowers, and another quite small recycling project. Several weeks ago I had purchased some goat Brie cheese in a circular wooden container. When we were through I kept the container, it’s a bad habit of mine, again with the “I’ll do something with it” notion in the back of my head. As I was putting my pen away I saw the container, which is circular, and thought, “Man in the Moon”. I scanned it into my computer and added a few effects. Not sure what I’ll do with it, but it was fun and took my mind off things for a bit. My second passion, which is cooking, comes easy to me and relaxes me, so a photo of a small plate that we snacked on this evening. Homemade pesto, peperonata, and sun-dried tomato pesto, with a goat/cream cheese mixture and some crostini. Delicious! Hopefully my Dad will be more himself tomorrow, and I can get back to work.
I know I said I would do something different today, I also said that I would be working on some altered art, but I changed my mind. Why? (As if anyone but me cares.) We decided to go for a walk today, actually it was a hike. We live near what is called the Santa Rosa Plateau in Southern California. It is a spectacular nature preserve with incredible vistas. If you can ever make it there it should be much earlier than the end of April. Although it was beautiful today, if you can manage to be there in early March that is definitely the time to go. Vernal pools arise out of nowhere, and the wild flowers are everywhere. It is a very hilly area with a few rough spots, but so well worth it. The temperature was a bit warm, in the mid 80’s, and we wore the wrong shoes, and both were rewarded with sunburn, but I took more than 250 photos today. Almost all were of flowers, and that is what led to today’s post. I was so inspired by what I saw today that I decided to draw some of the Lupines that grow in abundance here in the spring. It is a pencil sketch, using both color pencil and lead pencil, and a white Conte’ crayon. It isn’t exact, which is actually a good thing because it means I’m learning to let go a little. The altered art can wait until tomorrow. I’m tired, burned, and done in by the hike. So I will make this short, post my drawing, and treat you all to a few photos from today.
By the way, as always there is food. We had a lovely afternoon in our garden after the hike with a chilled bottle of Chardonnay and a meat and cheese platter.